had a damn bad mood this few days. but i didn't wan it to affect CY so i decided to write it here.
sometimes i really feel like running away from you.but if i really turned away what woud happen??? and i really don wish to do that too. i love you being by my side, doing things together, talking rubbish on e phone, making me laugh as if there is no tomorroww. but i really wish i had a real normal normal normal relationship. im afraid i cant meet up to your expectation. to me this is wad you are asking is really huge to me real huge and i don think im able to do it. it's not like i don wanna give in but..... i just cant. im sorry!

when you talk abt her, im affected though i don seems so
when you talk abt bring me home, im afraid like i nv felt before
when you talk abt us, i feel guilty and upset sometimes and wondering if it's better if we didnt start.
when you look str8 into my eyes, it's like only you exist in the whole world
when you be nice to me, im afraid i might lose you one day
when you hold me in your arms, i didnt wan to let go
when your lips touchs mine, i wish we could freeze that moment.
when i see you tired or upset, i felt bad too like i was link to you
when i see you smile, i felt sweet


im sorry baby if i have not been doing my part. im afraid like wad you said i'll be tired of giving one day.
i don wish to go to that day. never. ever since you said that this words had being playing in my head. like playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing playing 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